I really don't know what I want to talk about today, only that I do want to write and keep this somewhat current with my life. So what is there to talk about?
The show finished yesterday. There was a matinee, then strike (which was fun but hard- I did so much carrying that my legs and arms are sore still), then a little break for dinner and seeing Eric, Cameren, and Danielle, and then the cast party at Jake's, which was fun. I really love that whole cast and crew, and I'm going to miss them so much. We've of course said that we're going to still hang out, and with a few of them I'm really going to try- Mathia, Schuyler, maybe Melissa... maybe. And then there are more that I really liked and was friends with but I know I'm probably not going to see that much- Shane, Paul, Caridel, Josh, Kyle, Ethan, Aurora, Yokko... everyone, basically. So it's sad. But I'm also happy, because now I'll have time to spend with my other friends who were so neglected for so long.
Speaking of spending time with neglected friends, I really want to be amazing and kind to Eric today. I think he had a bad night last night, with everyone else going out and being home alone, and I feel badly about it. I wasn't there for him. And then there's the whole thing with Joey and Nick from before which, even though it ultimately didn't matter, I still feel badly about, because it feels like cheating even when I know he doesn't mind too much and I didn't really have a say in the matter with Nick. I think I should just stop kissing anyone else altogether... but it's so hard to give up girls completely like that. Maybe only kiss them when he's around? I don't know. It's not going to happen again anytime soon, if ever again at all, that's for sure. And he's been so kind about it, and everything, and I think he's needed me even though he hasn't told me so. So I'm going to be at my best girlfriend mode for a while- he deserves at least that, if not far more. And I resolve not to let him rile me up when he's upset. Yes.
Wow, I just spent a half hour on the phone with Danielle. Crazy. She really likes me somehow, and she says that Cameroni does too. I think I've really got a complete circle of friends here now- the closest friends I've ever really had. It isn't like in high school with just hanging out one on one- everyone loves each other so much. I'm really lucky. It's hard for me to get close to girls, and now I have three whole girlfriends! Plus Joey and Ai, if I got to see them more often, and Katie goes without saying... and then when you count Abby, Ayu, Moriah, and Rachi- that's a fuckton of female friends!
I think I really, truly want to learn bass. Maybe I will ask my parents for a bass and a printer and an air mattress for hannukah and leave it at that. I'll give them back Arye even, to trade in, and ask Eric to help them pick a good one. I'm probably going to fail miserably at it, but.... I really want to be able to play an instrument too, like everyone else. And I love bass. It's so... me. In the background, but important. Hee, I flatter myself.
It is food time now so I will stop writing. But this is good! It's a good step.
By the way, this is an excellent website:
http://petropolitics.blogspot.com/(I made it.)
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